who says sex can't give you cancer
the moment i was in her i was infected with a cancer like no other
a non biological killer in the worst of ways
if i go my world ends and i don't care what happens to the rest
FEARS fills me as all that i can do is shed an ass load of TEARS
"TAKE RESPONSIBILITY" "SUFFER THE CONSEQUENCES"
there is no worse punishment on this earth than the fear of imprisonment alone
DEATH WILL BE THE SALVATION FROM THAT HELL ON EARTH and i don't want to leave you , NONE OF YOU deserve to be hurt in that way, my name lives in shame for that mistake
waiting , clock ticking , alcohol consuming, FEAR anticipation of death is worst than death itself
terminal is how i've felt since that fateful day , the day that marked the rest of my days , the reason i live to my fullest if i can , i'm scared and ALONE yet i have so much support i love you all i thank you all for it but i am ALONE i ALONE must face this fear I ALONE WILL FEEL THE HAMMER AS IT CRUSHES ME
i leave my fate up to a jury and a judge
MY FATE ISN'T IN MY HANDS , none of you will ever understand how that is NONE OF YOU
FEAR AND TEARS THAT'S ALL I'VE GOT
10 MINUTES OF SEXUAL PLEASURE IN EXCHANGE FOR 30 PLUS YEARS IN JAIL
30 plus years MY LIFE GONE FOR SOMETHING I DIDN'T DO
24 DAYS FROM NOW MY FATE IS DECIDED AS TO END THERE FOR CONTINUE
everyday it draws nearer i know i'm dying
i feel as though i've been on my death bed for close to 5 maybe 6 months now
TERMINAL CANCER'S ALL I'VE GOT
day by day the reaper bekons as the days are torn off the calender she comes closer
the scythe grows sharper
no prison itself is not death necessarily but i have not intent of suffering through hell on earth
everyday ,EVERY DAY IT GET'S CLOSER MY INSANITY AND PARANOIA GROWS AND I SUFFER FOR THAT 10 MINUTES THAT SHOULD HAVE NEVER HAPPENED , MY FAULT
I WASN'T CAREFUL ENOUGH , I WAS TOO INCOMPETENT FUCK ME ALRIGHT I GET I PEOPLE EVERY FUCKING DAY I HEAR IT "IT'S YOUR FAULT IT'S YOUR FAULT IT'S YOUR FAULT " I WANT TO CRAWL INTO A DITCH AND LIE THERE TIL I DIE BECAUSE IT NEVER GET'S ANY EASIER , I SHOULD BE OPTIMISTIC ,fuck YOUR OPTIMISM you WOULDN'T BE VERY OPTIMISTIC IN MY SITUATION i get it FUCK ME , FUCK MY LIFE,, I DIDN'T BELONG HERE, I DON'T BELONG HERE SO OF COURSE FATE DECIDES TO HIT ME WITH A STRAY BULLET STRAIGHT TO MY HEAD , ANYTHING IS BETTER THAN THIS ANYTHING , SO FUCK IT , FUCK RESPONSIBILITY IT'S A JOKE , THERE IS NO RESPONSIBILITY, WHY THE FUCK DIDN'T I JUST END IN FEBRUARY WHY AM I STILL HERE , JUST TO SUFFER MORE?!! FUCK YOU GOD , FUCK YOU SATAN , FUCK YOU SOCIETY , FUCK ALL OF YOU , NONE OF YOU WANT ME HERE NOTHING WANTS ME HERE NO ONE WANTS ME TO STAY , IT'S CLEAR I DON'T BELONG HERE NOTHING HAS FLOWED RIGHT NOTHIGN MAKES SENSE SO I GIVE UP I'M SORRY FUCK IT BRING ON THE JAIL TIME BRINGG ON THE PRISON BECAUSE I'M NOT GOING ANYWHERE OTHER THAN HELL I'LL TAKE AS MANY AS I CAN WITH ME ,AND I CREATE MORE SHIT BY WRITING THAT MORE AMMUNITION FOR SOLICITORS AND WHOEVER ELSE FUCK YOU ALL FUCK YOU ALL , FFFFFFFFFUUUUUUUUUUUUUCCCC
YOU GET ME , YOU GET PARANOIA AND PSYCHOSIS , SO BRING IT , ALL OF YOU FUCKING GOVERNMENT FUCKS , BRING IT , I BEG YOU ALL TO BRING IT , I COMMITTED SUICIDE IN MAY YOU COULD HAVE LET ME END IT BACK THEN YOU STUPID FUCKS WHY DIDN'T YOU IT'S ILLEGAL TO COMMIT SUICIDE SO YOU FORCE ME TO LIVE SO THAT YOU CAN ALL DEAL WITH THE HELL I'LL BRING LATER ON FUCK YOU
LET ME DIE , ONE LESS PRISONER , LESS TAX DOLLAR MONEY , FUCKING BRING IT , BULLETS ARE CHEAP SO ARE GUNS , SO USE THEM ON ME , PLEASE USE THEM SHOOT ME AS MANY TIMES AS YOU'D LIKE BRING IT JUST FUCKING DO IT ALREADY , NO POINT IN CONTINUING NONE WHAT SO FUCKING EVER , I WRITE THIS FOR ALL TO SEE AT THIS POINT BECAUSE THE ONLY "CALMING THING" I'VE GOT THE ONLY REASSURING THING I HAVE RIGHT NOW IS RAGE , RAGE AND FEAR , THAT'S WHAT THIS HAS CREATED , THE WORST COMBO EVER AND NONE OF THE PEOPLE TRYING TO TAKE ME DOWN ARE SAFE, I'VE GOT NOTHING LEFT AND NO OTHER OPTIONS IF IT COMES DOWN TO IT SO I SAY FOR THE LAST TIME TIL THE 28TH , BRING IT
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